Our whole weekened together♥ i lovee yu!

Had the best weekend ever♥

It was just perfect a two days at Chama, qreat views, many rivers, green everywhere and nice hotel. . But the bestest thinq; next to my baby[: It all started on saturday hehe. .We had everything ready and left to Chama at 7:00am. It was my sister, my brother, my mom&dad. my baby & i♥ . .I had a great time at the park lol, it was in the middle of nowhere and old but still very cute. Then we ate idk how many times, went to look at a hotel to stay the night and found a pretty ship one[: It was funny my parents telling us there was no way me and miguel were sleeping together hehe we weren't even planing to tho . . Then we went to many rivers and found beautiful views it was romantic[: hehe. finding death deers was really sad tho but it was all so nice over there. My baby & I had so much fun specially the next day (sunday] we went to taos then to espanola, &' then to the swimming beach at cochiti[: it was a very fun experience then we went to see a hole that looked like there was no ending. uyyy[: . .But it all got us to the conclusion that I lovee to spend time with my baby because without him there will be no fun'i adore him everyday a lot more &' i wish to keep him forever♥

Awww man, I miss him:\

I guess is to hard to understand that we both have very busy schedules but it really sucks:\ My everyday schedule is always the same during the week: Summer school, go home clean, eat take a shower, soccer practice form 4-5:30, then from 6-7 i go to the gym with my sister than, go home take a nap, take a shower eat and go to bed. &' his is always the same also:Football practice in the morning, baseball practice, the games he goes home and clean the yard and stuff and it just suckss :\ I guess I got really used to seeing him three days on week'days and then the weekend. But now he's phone disconnected, we always talk at night and we talk for tlike ten minutes because we had a busy day and we have to go to bed early. &'it just seems like we are never going to have time anymore:[ ...But I'm really glad soccer prectice was canceled today and even tho i still have to go clean, and shopping for the weekend, and to the gym with my sister I i want to stop by his house and just give him a BIGGGG huq and a HUGGE kiss[: Because i miss them soo much! Im kind of gald we give eachother the space and we both do what we need to do but I still miss him:\ The last time i seen him was saturday and I am dying to see him! I think about him all day & night. . But is not so horrible after all I get to spend the whole entire weekend with him, Gettinq out of Albuquerque for the weekend with the family and my love should defently help[: Im soo excittedd can't wait to go the the rivers, hotels and all the beautiful enviornment over there is just going to be great having him there and my family[: justt perfect!! -Even tho'I miss him so much I think the waitinq will be worth it [: this weekind should defently be a 10[:

I adore him[:

He's BEAUTIFUL♥

i love him sooo freakin muchh

more every second of my life!

The only questions I can ever think about is -How can I show him? -What if I was to lose him?

&&'I try showinq my love& I will die without him.

I wonder If is real? If is forever? If he feels exactly the same way? Idkk'i justt know i more than love him♥

He's my life, my whole world, my everythinq & moree! I thank god everyday for giving me someone like him. someone that is the everthing to my life'& that i love with my heart and more..

My favorite song's lyrics♥

                                                    

It’s amazing how you can speak right to my heart

Without saying a word you can light up the dark

Try as I may I could never explain

What I hear when you don’t say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me

There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall

You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud

But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd

Old mr. webster could never define

What’s being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me

There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall

You say it best when you say nothing at all

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me

There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me

The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

& is to my baby(:

He's the inspiration to my life♥

I'm so glad to have him by my side(:

Ever since he came to my life I just try to be better and better. I love when he tells me I have a good heart and that he's proud of the great personality I have.I'm SO glad I'm starting the gym today and soccer on Wednesday and I'm so glad he's going to be there to motivate me(: He started football Monday and he is still doing summer ball(baseball) And I'm just so happy that both of us are doing what we like now. That way we won't always be together all the time we will keep are minds busy and not feel like we can't breath because we are always together.We are giving eachother space so we can grow as a couple and learn how to be more independent(: I just love the way our lives are turning out to be, the respect, the love and everything else helps. Every little thing he does makes me happy & I just feel lucky to have him♥ & his support

First Birthday with him♥....

And yess it got way better;Everything went just awsome, my friends came over my Niesie who I haven't seen in like forever& i was with my babe of course & i loved my birthday cuz of him!♥ I lovee him too freakin' MUCHHH!♥♥

love fights rough times....

I suppose not everything is perfect about us. Today's my birthday and I am not so happy. I suppose is that I'm getting old and after all is not too exiting. I really miss Cameron who past away 6 months ago. I  really needed to hear an "i love you" and all we did was fight.:\ all night Long I felt lonely:(. I miss the fact that last year Cameron was still here and he got me a hotel to party(: He was like a brother to me, he was my brother in law he he. I miss everything all the crazy memories and puts me down a lot that this year I don't have him for my birthday:( ....Me and Miguel fought over and over last night but he knows I'll never leave him, even if at 12:00am we were fighting and we were about to brake up. Every time we fight I just cry because i can't imagine my life without him. And I feel sad for many reasons today. I really need him, and I miss the people that were with my last year today. I hope I have a better day and that my birthday after all isn't SO weird and sad...All I know is that I love him more than my life..:(

I wish you were here, I wish You could of met this wonderful guy in with. I miss you SO much, there's days that I wonder who will you be today.What if you were here? how would you celebrate my birthday this year? I wish you were here with us CameronOur crippled walk he he! Thank you, because i know you are looking over me and you know I love my Miguel more then anything in this world! ♥ "I realize how beautiful the sky was, and I remembered is because you are up there" I miss you brother.

the best thing about my life;♥is you

This feeling; Is unexplainable, irraplaceable, & amazinq ♥ Is amzing how a person can love another and how a person can feel a thousand things at once. The day he called me wife was the best day hehe(: I know for a lot of couples that wouldn't matter but not the case with me, i care about every little thing because everything about him matters to me. may'08 was the day he called me "his wifey" & I swear he has me blushing, my tummy full of the butterflies & a cheeser all day. I never thought I could feel this way for someone, a feeling that I feel stronger every morning. But what can i say I know this love is pure& the most beautiful thing in my life. I adore him!! Today June'4'10 I notice something as more time passes, the more respect I feel for him.& I'm so gald I get that back we haven't fough in a long time & it feels really good. My life is beautiful if I'm next to him. To be honest we've been together for 9 months now and nothig has happen (you kno the meaning] & I feel lucky to have a boyfriend that respects me that was; he knows I want to wait because for me my body matters, I don't want to give him more than my love right now & is not because i don't trust him or love him enough. I just believe there's soo many other ways to show someone you love them before you give them your everything. Our realationship is full of respect (thank god] I think that's why our love is different maybe. But we really don't care& I just pray we stay this way. He's respects, his trust,& his love is what makes this love grow stronger.

A poem to my baby♥

You're the first thing I think of
Each morning when I rise
You're the last thing I think of
When I close my eyes

You're in each thought I have

And every breath I take
My feelings are growing stronger
With every move you make

You're an angel from above
who takes away my pain
My love for you is so strong
It's always just the same

You're the miracle in my life
Who can always make me smile
Just knowing that you care
Makes my life worth-while

You've touched my heart and soul
Which you have from the start
Your warm soft words
Will never leave my heart

You are everything I want
You're so pure and true
I love you with everything I have
And I love everything that you do.

& the story continues

The love story continues♥

What can I say the feelinq will just qrow & qrow and i qot sooo atach to him. They say as time passes the relationship qets harder I don't believe in that, because to me as more time passes, the more months I'm happy. I have a lot of thinqs to thank him for, he's always been there no matter what, He's seen me sad, mad, bugged, annoyed, tierd, sleepy, happy, hyper. From cry-dance& more(: He's everythinq I've ever wanted, my dream come true, a gift from god, my favorite song, my favorite hobby, my beqqininq& my forever'♥  .He's transparent, someone I can trust, someone I admire, someone I can be myself with, someone amazinq inside&out, someone I want to grow old with. He's someone I will never forget; he's the one that makes my life complete. I will fight for him against the whole world if I have to; because he's the best thing that has ever happen to me. He's the friend, the boyfriend, the parner, the lover, & the angel to my life. I will die without him! He's gave me the definition of perfect; every second next to him, every kiss, every hug, when he holds me tight, when I feel him close, every heart beat, when he holds my hand, when he breaths next to me, when he tells me "i love you", when he smiles at me, when he looks at me, when he says bye, when he talks, when he touches me, he's smell, he's walk, his face, his love, HIM♥ that's the defination of perfect. I thank qod for giving me the gift to love and be loved by someone BEAUTIFUL! because i define him as beautiful(: I think about him day & niqht; when I wake up, when I sleep I wish he was next to me, I dream about him, When i hear a love song, when I smile, when I cry, when I breath♥

He's cute even when he's mad at me(: He's a dork, funny, very different, he's him self, he could be serious, enojon hehe, and he could get me pretty mad to but we know those fights are nothing compare to our love & fights will never brake us apart(: In fact nothing can brake us apart I believe our love is stronq enouqh to fiqht aqainst anythinq & everythinq. I try to show him my feelinqs towards him every day even though is not easy sometimes. But god knows I will never let his love go& give up on the love of my life, because he is & will always be everyday of forever The love of my life♥

The first months♥

Our first pictures toqether♥

The first months weren't easy I'll admit. He was SOO imature lOl. it was fights, it was tears ....blah blah...

But we also had qood times .. His kissed-THE BEST. the look in his eyes will make my tummy get full of butterflies and made me realize i couldn't give up on someone like him(:

I was willinq to wait to help him mature and change. & thak god it was happeining♥ He cheated on me:\ and I felt like he steped on my feelings everything i was doing and this just broke me heart in pieces..

But days will pass and I will miss his kisses more and more... I had to forqive him because it wasn't that i wanted to is that i had to because my life sucked without him, I needed his kisses, huqs& his hand holdinq mine. & It finally chanqed it wasn't me tryinq sooo hard nemore he was doinq it; He was makinq me happy, he was maturinq and just qrowinq as a person.. To the qreatest person he is today♥  

The Beqinninq♥

A huq, a kiss♥

I knew him since 7th grade and i had a Lil crush on him all the way to 8th grade; He was a flirt Lol, he will always ask every girl for a kiss he he(:8th grade ended and I kinda forgot about him. 9th grade i went to Rio Grand andhe was here at Atrisco so we wouldn't see each other or nethinq....But....♥

It all started summer 09♥-It was a lil myspace massage hehe- "Hey how come you never text me?"

I was a lil comfused hehe and said- "I dont even have your number"So he ended up qivinq me his number...

The next day I texted him and said- "Hi it's Sandy"and we started talkinq .... Every time he will call me "gorgeous" or "beautiful"in a flirtinq way he had me blushiq for lonq(: But i will never see us toqether, we were soo different.To me he was just a flirt and I'm someone who takes thinqs serious, who doesn't say i love you unlessit comes from the heart. And it was hard to see us toqether ,, ever...The days passed and He lost his phone and didn't talk to him forweeks...Sophmore year started and I was attending Atrisco again(: & he was too♥Awww i was HAPPY. the first day of school he gave me a big huq that told me,maybe one day we will be toqether. And it happen Aqust 25 He asked me for a kiss, I didnt kiss himbecause to me it wasnt right, we were nothinq so why would i kiss him..(:-that same day he called me from his mom's phone we talked, he asked me out(:&& I happily said "Yes" It was the beqinniq of a stronq feelinq♥