love fights rough times....

I suppose not everything is perfect about us. Today's my birthday and I am not so happy. I suppose is that I'm getting old and after all is not too exiting. I really miss Cameron who past away 6 months ago. I  really needed to hear an "i love you" and all we did was fight.:\ all night Long I felt lonely:(. I miss the fact that last year Cameron was still here and he got me a hotel to party(: He was like a brother to me, he was my brother in law he he. I miss everything all the crazy memories and puts me down a lot that this year I don't have him for my birthday:( ....Me and Miguel fought over and over last night but he knows I'll never leave him, even if at 12:00am we were fighting and we were about to brake up. Every time we fight I just cry because i can't imagine my life without him. And I feel sad for many reasons today. I really need him, and I miss the people that were with my last year today. I hope I have a better day and that my birthday after all isn't SO weird and sad...All I know is that I love him more than my life..:(

I wish you were here, I wish You could of met this wonderful guy in with. I miss you SO much, there's days that I wonder who will you be today.What if you were here? how would you celebrate my birthday this year? I wish you were here with us CameronOur crippled walk he he! Thank you, because i know you are looking over me and you know I love my Miguel more then anything in this world! ♥ "I realize how beautiful the sky was, and I remembered is because you are up there" I miss you brother.